Anti Hero Letra

The way her cold hands felt in mine
Reminds me I'm still broken
Rips me open

She died before we made it to the hospital
I held my mother's body as she cried
All my life she felt so tall and powerful
But now I was the rock which she relied

After all the this time
What a fool I was to think we still had time
When we still had time
In all my life
What a fool I was to think we still had time
But we still have time
There's still time

I was just a child
Her love was like the ocean
Like the ocean
And dark and infinite
Cold but ever flowin'
Still I'm frozen

Ignorance had always been a luxury
But you can't go back to blindness now with all you've seen
And who am I without a man to comfort me?
I guess after all these years, perhaps we'll finally see

All this time
What a fool I was to think we still had time
When we still had time
In all my life
What a fool I was to think we still had time
There's still time

So don't you cry, don't you cry, not for me
I ain't the Anti-Hero of this story
I force a smile cause I'm that kind of sleaze
Just a ghost of a man who I wanted to be
So don't you cry, don't you cry, not for me
Just let me lie, closed blinds through the morning
Upon a time, was a boy with a dream
Now I'm so fuckin' high I think I'm starting to see
So don't you cry, don't you cry, not for me
I'm just a boy who had too much to drink
No, I won't die, I'm too scared, I'm too weak
Still I flirt with that darkness closing in on me
So don't you cry, don't you cry, not for me
I lost it all, there ain't nothin' to see
I'm in a hell I made special for me
Now I'm so high I think I'm starting to see

I think I'm starting to see
I think I'm starting to see
I think I'm starting to see