Too Long Letra

I been frozen all the pain
Got me feeling so insane, staring out the window pain
I feel like one with all the rain, wishing I could wash away
All the memories we had, every single laugh
Everything up in the past, now I’m feeling trapped
Trine get to that, point where I can let it go
I know I’m supposed to grow from this
I feel like fucking all these hoes means I let it show
That I’m still hurt, every time I put it in a verse
It gets worse, late at night you’re always gonna lurk
I can feel the curse, closing in on me, I just hope I make it out
Had a heart a couple years ago and now its taken out
I'm trine find a way, I’m in need of new direction
Every time another woman comes around showing affection
Even though I wish I could they can see I’m unaffected
Cause I'm busy hoping that you hit me phone up with a message like

So how could you.. run around with that bullshit when i was working late
Trynna make this work but lately
Everything been hurting me
I couldn't even see your heart
I remember when i used to hold it
Know this, still focused, fuck me up and i show this, left me so open and oh shit
I.. couldn't even touch you in the same room.. just an arms length apart
Dont got the strength to start
My day, no strength to start
At all.. thought i was wrong
Made me think i messed up, better fess up, you the one that should've stressed us, should not be the one thats looking out for any next love
I fucked with bitches, cause bitch you done fucked me up
Need a couple different ones in a week just to shut me up
Yeah you said your sorrys, sorry, but sorry won't cut this one
And you lie to all your friends and said you couldn't trust me once
And i hope that you find some pictures that you forgot to delete
You said i was your one and only, you'll never find option B
Said i filled your lungs with air, is your breathing now obsolete
Am i not as off as i seem? was i honestly lost beneath? I don't know