I'm No Good Letra

Shit's sad growing up in the gutter
But I met a lot of kids, want to be like I am
It's weird, people see you on the come up
Then you happy with some money but I'm meaning I'm pissed
My girlfriend knows that I love her
But I mentally abuse her and I treat her like shit
We both suicidal, she a cutter
All I do is self-loath, what's the reason I live?
We'd just empty liquor bottles in the cupboard
Lying to each other like next week we'll quit
Get drunk, make a straw outta dollar
But it's okay, it's only cocaine, not meth
My family looking at me like a fuck up
And they're right, and I don't want to disappoint my twin
I pray one day [?]
But [?] schedule an appointment with the - devil
Lords knows that I don't wanna - die
So I'm begging, praying help me please
I lie like [?] in the summer
With anxiety and I ain't got no self-esteem
A lot of people are going wanna tell me shut up
Cause they got it way worse, I'm a selfish piece of shit
Make a motherfucker wonder, what it's gonna take for me to change mentally