Spleenager Letra

I'm drinking again sinking again Once again I get stuck in this Too stunned to speak much too weak Still not knowing what it is feeling strange try to change afraid of all the things I do But in fact You turn your back While I waste my love on you refrain: why do I long for your touch why can't I love someone else why do I need you so much why do I run from myself my heart lies to me souls sighs to me surviving is open to doubt living in shame no one to blame collapsing when the lights flow out last option blood you like it or not you say my love's your mental health but just in your space not to my face but under the breath to yourself refrain: why do I long for your touch why can't I love someone else why do I need so much why do I run from myself refrain I went my spleen on myself