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I never thought the end would come this way
That's for the other ones
In a different place, on a different day

Remember walking through the Cambridge grass
It was cold that day
I was so alive

Now I'm dead and cold
In a different way
I remember almost every word and every smile you gave

What am I supposed to feel?
How am I supposed to swallow this?
It's like one hundred pills
Doing their best to climb out of my mouth
Everything's gone south
Fucked it up for real
What am I supposed to feel?

In the end you sank the shiv that sank me
One flesh torn in two
One mouth less left to feed

Now I'm walking wounded through these scenes
Now you're free
So fly, don't think twice or wave goodbye

Hold the pain, the frame
Shame on me
Should have pulled it out by now but I savor the sting

Life's a funeral and an empty bed
I have taken mine a hundred times
Will I bury you instead?

What am I supposed to feel?
How am I supposed to swallow this?
It's like one hundred pills
Doing their best to climb out of my mouth
Everything's gone south
Fucked it up for real
What am I supposed to feel, feel?