Benjamin's Curse Letra

Let me make you a child again
Do you remember way back when?
Let me make you a child again
Do you remember way back when?
Let me make you a child again
I want to see your smile again
See your smile again

A young lad trying to make it in a land
Where being a black man they hardly understand
Me neither; I rarely had a leader
To bypass the bottle, to show me that I can
Be a beacon of light, be a giver of hope
Instead of taking a life, showing you what I tote
Bag it up at the end 'til the end is at my throat
The end being my death when the means is selling dope
So I took another route; mapping my life out
In the end I wanted dollars; let's see what this life's bout
Round after round in my city It's going down
Like Pacquiao; intrigued; like mama look what I found
In the ground; there's a gold mine; I don't wanna escape
This feeling I can't replace; see your dreams will have to wait
On this grind; I want the cake, ain't even my birthday
But I'm hungry and thirsty, but I'm hearing this earth say

Everyday is a roller coaster, and
I'm not ready for the ride
Life can drive you crazy
Everyday is a roller coaster, and
I'm not ready for the ride
Life can drive you crazy

These four walls got a voice of they own, and I listen
My mind missin' in the city where the hope is gone and crime risen
The same box that had me intrigued is now prison
The church I see a schism and treacherous competition
So the answer's not religion for me; I got a mission of my own
And I'm wishing to be anything that I see
To get me out of this hell; yeah, my thirst has increased
It's pretty dry in the well; police, they want me to fail
That's how I feel when they throw a young kid
In the back of a squad car, not telling me what I did
I'm just trying to live, just trying to grow
Just trying to learn, just trying to show
That I can be somebody in this world of hate
That's terrified of my face so they can't relate
Insane; see, that's the reason why I chase the fame
To show em' we equal and inside the same

Tell me how am I suppose to brace myself
When it always comes from where
I least expect
Tell me how am I suppose to brace myself
When it always comes from where
I least expect

Now, my own people pulling me down
Crabs in a bucket; I'm feeling like my luck is
Run out; I pull up on my throne, they pull the guns out
Like I ain't from here; they tell me since
I got what they wanted first, I can never ever come here
They say they run here, and I ain't welcome no more
This ain't home; add some obscenities
To the convo and yup!
That would be the sum here; they bout' they math
Lookin' like one they can grab; they a 99
So to keep it 100 and show they run it
"That chain and that watch is mine"
See, it's like a fine that you pay when you say
"Oh, my family, they doing fine." Nope, not a crime
They took my watch so I'm out of time
Put the barrel to my face and I lost my mind
Bang

Just as I was bound to lose my mind
I heard a voice sweeter than wine