Beau Letra

18 years to pick me up from the ground, they never tried to lift me up it sometimes made me wonder why they didn?t dare to simply leave me there to die 18 years, not long enough the restlessness and awkwardness of feeling bound I didn?t choose to live this life I hate myself as much as I hate you It took 18 years to free me from these fears From hiding all those tears Ruling my world and now my grave It took 18 years to free me from these fears From hiding all those tears Ruling my world 18 years to lift me up from the bed my mother made for me it took 18 years to clearly believe and see that though no longer my hands and feet were tied I would always end up wired LIAR: no need to step out of line they said LIAR: they tried to trample me and now I?m dead LIAR: no need to step out of line? You should step out right now In your car, I was lucky, well, you know It felt as if I was free, the great wide open But the doors, they spoiled my dreams I could not drive Start the engine to end this life 18 years just long enough in a life that?s just too rough I?d really like to trade my body in