Escapism (engl.) Letra

I knew somewhere in my heart that something like happiness wouldn't continue But these feelings of liking you won't change Goodbyeee forever to the fun days-aiaiai From today, I'm alone I have to live without your smiling face Thinking about all about those sad things I've put a question mark on the meaning of living ah I wanted to be with you forever so don't leave me behind ah Forever Wasn't there from the begining, was it ah I'm getting scared I'm walking the answerless road single-mindedly ah I really loved you When has it become so easy to cry I want to laugh I want to laugh Next to you I can't laugh anymore Painful Sad I want to see you If I remember it I embrace sadness Quietly Quietly I fall down When I realize it, tears are spilling over I want to disappear I want to die I want to go crazy Being entrapped everyday by the sweet temptations, drugs, and women I thought it doesn't matter With some girl I don't know that I met at a club I picked my drug and had ectasy sex ah I name my beloved pet that I have only for tonight ah Slutty bunny Shaking your hips up and down just like I thought you would ah Enchant me With your rhymical dancing ah my baby Tonight was a perfect tone Those days that the two of us followed our whims Were contrarily not a lie I told myself I keep fighting Between the loneliness and the solitude The weakling ran away from the reason When has it become so easy to cry I want to laugh I want to laugh Next to you I can't laugh anymore Painful Sad I want to see you If I remember it I embrace sadness Quietly Quietly I fall down When I realize it, tears are spilling over I want to disappear I want to die I want to go crazy You said some everyday words to me again Thank you Thank you I love you At that place that we met By myself Only me Will fall