Forgive Letra

I feel like a bad person
And I know it's not my fault
The distance is far too long
But in my defence they don't call me either

I'm picking up bad habits
And building a tolerance
I'm smoking a cigarette
In the backyards of friends of friends
And I've never felt much hell
Like the burn of my Christian guilt
Perpetual sin, it kills all my fire

And maybe I've tried
All that I could
Maybe I've changed
Or maybe I should
'Cause I'm getting tired
Inside my own skin
So maybe I owe it to myself to forgive

I'm staying up way too late
Forgetting to eat something
And I underestimate
Quite how much is on my plate
'Cause then I'm awake all night
Obsessed with my appetite
And I wonder why I'm sick in the morning

And maybe I've tried
All that I could
Maybe I've changed
Or maybe I should
'Cause I'm getting tired
Inside my own skin
So maybe I owe it to myself to forgive

I beat myself up again
Make up some consequence
Knowing that isn't productive or positive
Years of my life I've spent craving repentance
Resenting the fact that I go back
Again and again, and again, and again
And again, and again
And again, and again

Maybe I've tried all that I could (and again, and again)