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I woke up late it was like 10 in the morning I was still half asleep sleep eyed still yawning I checked my voice mail just to see who'd been calling Turn on my computer check e-mail logged on it Junk mail, junk mail dog gone it Everybody they just trying to sell me they products But there was one e-mail that just caught my optics It said suicidal I took the mouse I clicked on it She said Dear KJ you don't know who I am You probably don't even care cause I'm just another fan I doubt you'll ever read this now but if you can Sometimes I slash my wrists or even cut my hands I feel all alone like nobody understands And I'm going to end it tonight I got the whole thing planned Pop pills, leave a note on my night stand Signed sincerely your #1 fan Can someone now please help me? I need someone now to please help me My heart is pounding as I started to type back Why do you feel this way do you mind if I ask? What the source and cause of the pain that you have How did you get this way is it something from ya past God cares about you I hope you understand that Please don't end your life I beg you please write back Letras de cancionesI finished typing I sent the e-mail quite fast I bowed my head and prayed with the strength that I had She said man KJ I didn't even think you'd write me Let me explain why nobody could ever like me It all started when my father used to strike me I been raped and abused since 1990 He's gone now but I can't put it all behind me I want to run away but my troubles always find me Is God really just the One who could help me? Signed now your #1 fan sincerely Chorus Dear number one fan I got a lot to tell you But with e-mail there's only so much I can help you See I know a father that would never ever fail you Who will give you a love when nobody ever cared to I know you might feel like everybody hates you And you feel like you got no one that you relate to And death feels just like the best place to escape to But that's a lie that Satan he just wants to tell you I'm sorry that you were abused your father raped you But you have to get some help cause nobody can make you I know it's hard to face but God will give you strength to I know you got a lot of things you gots to work through But with his help see I know that you can break through I seen it myself all the times that he came through... Hit me back tell me what ya think of what I sent you I'll be praying sincerely KJ-52 Chorus I'd be pretending if I said the story had a happy ending But after that night see I never heard from her again That night I tossed turned lying on my bed and Crying praying with these thoughts running through my head and Did she do it take her life and wind up dead and Or did she not choose it and just listen to what I said and Maybe she never got the last one I was sending Is it my fault was there something I should've mentioned? Every morning I would just check my e-mail Checking for any detail hoping praying she's well My e-mails came back saying that they failed No such address for number one fan at hotmail Days turned to weeks and weeks turned to months and Time went past and I still just heard nothing No letter no e-mails just not even something What happened to my number one fan I'm still wondering? From Letras Mania