99 Neighbors

Rageless Hope
When I was 17, my only dream was cashin' the checks Sick of collect calls and withdrawals was a cause and effect 'Til mom interjects, "Sorry boo, your father's calling you To follow up to say he never follows through," what a mess Smoke a bowl and say, "What's goin' on?" Callin' from a burner phone, I know he goin' through it I can tell because his tone is off He asks me, "How is college? Prolly get your masters instead of owning your masters You gon' waste your knowledge if you don't act fast Ungrateful bastard, you need to take action to get back to your classes Opportunities pass and everything in moderation and duе time You'll do fine" He still havin' mood swings off thе moonshine I rather pay my dues in music, movies, fashion Instead of stolen Buick's and hoopty crashin' In fact, I ain't been to church in a minute The hourglass been tickin', I been trippin' off the shroomies and acid Lackin' the vision, the head on collision with myself though And reflecting on all this shit I planned out Oh, oh You would never hear a seed push through the ground I wish I told you I hate you for leaving, but that would mean I used to love you How could I give love to a person that only gave me trouble? 'Course you gave me life and supported me for a stretch Letras de cancionesEven fought for me in the courts when you knew you wasn't the best But at best, we'll make amends, and at sixty, you'll be my friend 'Cause this spot of father's been taken since before my mama's death I give portions of me (What's left?) Liquor poured (Like it's a test) I am more than what you named me, I'm sorry Damor been dead since the day I came to realize that you never got your shit together I fuckin' hope I get my shit together Disgusted with the semblance that we share, feelings mixed together Life has been a bitch, but we still left up in this bitch together Mom would want it, that's after all the nonsense and violence you put her through 'Cause she was motherfucking awesome Otherwise, these feelings wouldn't be talking I'm trying love and acceptance, so pick it up when I call Vegas Oh, oh You would never hear a seed push through the ground Ayy, yeah-ayy Lost a lot of light and couldn't find me that bright side My life's a struggle when every day movin' down But I been stuck on why she claim I’m her lifeline I never know what I should do So I'ma go and pour a drink for this call, watching the walls When everything in moderation slips and it falls, dipped and involved She say she facing 21, but didn't do it That's about the time it took to notice me, so what you doin'? I got missed calls, missed texts, I ain't appreciated Got me smokin' lonely, inebriated I had to go and beat the betas, mind becoming alpha I only smoke for that nostalgia And the reasons to live are getting stronger for me I tried to smoke a little less, the days were longer for me Never knew if I could make it out the gutter, I did that A couple broken memories, I'm never gon' miss that Real change, it always sounds so quiet You would never hear a seed push through the ground Real change, it always sounds so quiet You would never hear a seed push through the ground Real change, it always sounds so quiet You would never hear a seed push through the ground From Letras Mania